so I was just talking to a friend (he’s also my ex but I guess that doesn’t really matter) on facebook, and we’re talking about suicide and self destruction and all that fun stuff, and it was a really fucking depressing conversation, he was going on about how I shouldn’t do things to alter my emotions (drinking, drugs etc.) and I was going on about how if something makes me happy, even for a few minutes I’ll do it. This conversation was a bit upsetting to me and I’m sure it was a bit upsetting to him and then he goes, “this conversation combined with your profile picture is just too funny, god, you look so happy.”

I’m so talented at faking a smile.

I really wonder sometimes what strangers see when they look at me.